If you could ..

If you could go anywhere in the world , where would you go ? And WHY ?

If i could go anywhere in the world , Id have to sayy .. Tahiti . Because I just absolutely loooveee tahitian dancing & think its beautiful ! I think itd be the bestt thing in the worldd to go there & perform myself :) Thats one thing Id loove to doo before I dieee . Tahiti just seems soo calm & soothing Id like to be there & enjoy the island .

But if i could choose someplace else Id go , it would be somewhere where family is<3. And if not all my family, most of my family. All of my family ; together . in one place . Thats where id LOOVEEE to be if i could go anywhere in the worlddd . It wouldnt have to be anywhere exotic or anything. just someplace where we can all be together & love one another . aahhh ! thatd be the besttesttt ! and just because i lovee familyy . and family timee is priceless . without familyy, i dont know where id be . theyve brought me upp, help mode who i am todayy . family is the number one thing i value & id lovee to just go anywhere aslong as im with familyy .




Well thats it for now . if youd like to answer , just leave a comment ! i loveeee comments !
Thanks for all the lovee & support ! & thanks for taking time to read my bloggg !

MUCHlOVEE

<3lalaaa

Confe$$ion$

well i was just on a blog that i followw . for girls . & i came across an entry about confessions . & i thought that was pretty neat , you know , just because . that girl was just tellin the truthh & yeaahs . EVERYone & ANYone can view it . & its pretty latee & im really sleepy & tired so thats what im gonna do tonighttt .


Im not perfect , & I dont try to be .
I just like doing things to an extent where Im satisfiedd .
Im not the smartest person youll meet .
Nor am I the dumbest, I guarantee .
Im not really funnyy . I think people just laugh at me .
I have soooo many flaws ; I cant even name .
I dont feel comfortable in my own skin most of the time .
Sometimes I feel like life can be waayyy better .
But im pretty much satisfied now w. the little I havee =]
Most of the time I feel like its my fault for everything bad that happens .
I get really nervous around big crowds ; just because I think people might be looking at me .
I dont like when people stare . Yuck ! It makes me feel uglyy .
My mom is . Better than your mom ! Like a BFFFFFF ! Haha . No lieeee .
My sister is one of my heroes . Even though shes younger .
My dad . Well . I dont have the best dad in the worlddd . Unfortunatelyyyyy
I love dancing . Though Im not good at ittt . I thinkk
I love singing . It helps relieve my inner selff ! Mwuaha !
Im always on the computer . Doing nothingggg , AT ALLL .
I feeel really emo sometimes . like seriouslyy .
When loved ones lecture mee , I always want to cryy .
Im very sensitive , & I hate it .
Im weirdd . But coooool ;]
I have a big bodyy & small hands & feeet .
I like somebodyy , but im madly in lovee w. somebody else .
& Everyday I just hope that I can be able to talk to himm & if he'll ever feeel the same .
Everydayy I just want him to notice me like I notice himm
I just want to tell mom how I really feel & that she'll one dayy accept that Im growin upppp !
I wish I was sixteeeen alreadyy .
I am soo bummed that mom will not allow me to date at sixteeeen .
I feel that Ive disappointed & hurt mom soo many times .
I hate how I am my worst critic .

But Im me . & I love being me .
I love being imperfect . I love having flawss
I love that I can hate myself at times ,
but others love meee .
I lovee how singing & dancing makes me , ME .
I love how weird but yet coool I am .
I love how different & unique I am from others .
I love how I can be able to confess all these pointless things
& not stress over it .
I love my life . Because its MiNE . & this is how it is .
I wouldnt change my life for anybody elses .
I am the one who leads my destiny .
I love my Heavenly Father & how with him ,
All Things Are Possible .

Thanks everyone who reads my blogg ! Thanks for all the love & support . & taking your time to read this .

MUCHlOVEE

<3lalaaa

Yay Meeeeeee!

AAHHHH ! YAY ME ! SO0 iGUESS MY M0M N0MiNATED ME fOR THE bLOG Of THE DAY C0NTEST THiNG 0R WHATEVERR .. & iCHECKED MY EMAiL T0DAYY ; &iT SAiD THAT iG0T bL0G OF THE DAYY 0N TUESDAYY 0CT 21 ! iM PRETTY MUCHH AMPEDDD ! lOL .

LiTTLUNs

SO0 iHAVENT bEEN ON HERE fOR AWHiLE .. iVE PRETTY MUCH bEEN SLACKiNG .. lOL . jUST bEEN REALLY TiREd &LAZY bASiCALLY . N0T HAViNG ANYTHiNG TO TALK AbOUT .. &iM SORRY ! fOR ALL TH0SE WH0 ViSiT MY bLOG .. bUT iTHiNK TONiGHt iWANT TO TALK AbOUT ..

LiTTLUNs .

[Y0UNGER SibLiNGs]

CANT liVE WiTH THEM ! CANT LiVE WiTHOUT THEM ! bUT WHAT DO YOU DO WHEN YOUR LiL bRO OR SiS USEs YOU AS AN EXCUSE fOR THEM TO DO SOMETHiNG ?! fOR EXAMPLE ; MY SiSTER iS TRYiNG TO USE ME fOR HER TO DO SOMETHiNG . SHEs ONLY iN THE SiXTH GRADE THOUGH .. &WHAT iDiD WAS iN THE EiGHTH GRADE . iMEAN iM NOT SAYiNG iTs GONNA bE OKAY WHEN SHEs iN THE EiGHTH GRADE .. bUT STiLL . SHEs TO0 Y0UNG TO bE DOiNG WHAT SHE WANTs . SHE DOESNT kNOW . SHEs STiLL YOUNG &GR0WiNG ! liKE ; WHAT iDiD WAS bAD .. iWAS ALWAYs T0LD N0T T0 DO iT , bUT iDiD iT ANYWAY . bUT THAT DOESNT MAkE iT OKAY . iADMiT iT WAS WRONG &iSHOULdNT HAVE DONE WHAT iDiD .. bECAUSE WHEN iLO0K bACK ON iT, iT WAS PRETTY WORTHLESS . &NOW, iM NOT DOiNG ANYTHiNG LiKE THAT . iVE bEEN TRYiNG TO DO REALLY REALLY GO0D . &iTs bEEN G0iNG WELL SO0 fAR . &iDNT WANT MY SiSTER DOiNG WHAT SHE WANTs jUST bECAUSE iDiD iT .. THATs NOT 0KAY . 

SO0 WHAT DO iTELL HER ?!! jUST TO NOT DO iT ?!! THAT DOESNT MEAN SHE'LL ACTUALLY LiSTEN .. liKE HOW iDiDNT WHEN iWAS T0LD WHAT N0T T0 D0 . iMEAN , iDNT WANT HER TO GET HEARTbROKEN .. SHEs TO0 Y0UNG &PRECi0US fOR ANY OF THAT DRAMA THAT bOYs WiLL SURELY bRiNG .. bUT HOW DO iTELL HER THAT ?! WHAT CAN iTELL AN ELEVEN YEAR OLD TO NOT MAKE THE SAME MiSTAkEs AS HER biGGER SiSTER WHOM SHE LO0Ks UP TO ?!! HOW DO iDO THAT ?!! WiTHOUT HER HATiNG ME fOR THE REST OF HER MiDDLE SCHO0L DAYs ?!! SiMPLY . iDO NOT KNOW . iTHiNK THAT iLL jUST HAVE TO TELL HER THAT , WHAT iDiD WAS WRONG .. iT WAS ALL A WASTE OF TiME . &THAT SHE SH0ULDNT D0 iT bECAUSE SHEs FAR TO0 Y0UNG & THAT iREALLY CARE &DNT WANT HER TO GET HURT . OR bE TEMPTED TO DO ANYTHiNG . iM G0iNG T0 TELL HER THAT iF SHE D0ES WHAT SHE WANTs T0 D0 .. iD bE DEEPLY HURT &DiSAPP0iNTED . iD HATE TO SEE HER iF ANYTHiNG D0ESNT G0 THE WAY SHE WANTs iT TO . iTHiNK iD jUST HAVE TO TELL HER EVERYTHiNG .. YEAHH . iTHiNK THATLL WORK .. WELL H0PEfULLY . iLL GiVE iT A TRYY & WRiTE AbOUT WHAT HAPPENS .

WELL THATs ALL fOR NOW .. GETTiNG LATE &SEMiNARY iN THE M0RNiNG !

THANkS fOR READiNGG ! 

MUCHlOVEE !

<3lalaaa

2ND 0FFiCiAL T0PiC .. =D

WELL SO0 iGUESS THiS WiLL BE MY SEC0ND OFFiCiAL T0PiC .. AHAh . SO0 YEAHs . THiS WEEK AT SCHO0L iS YELL0W Ribb0N WEEK ; SUiCidE PREVENTi0N WEEK ! & T0DAY iWENT T0 THE ASSEMbLY .. AbOUT SUiCidE PREVENTiON . &iT WAS REALLy GO0D iMUST SAY . KiND Of EMOtiONAL .. bUT itS ALL GO0D NOW . SO0 T0NiGHT MY T0PiC iS

SUiCiDE PREVENtiON .

SUiCiDE iS NOT THE ANSWERR ! AHAh . SERiOUSLY . if YOU KNOW OF ANY0NE WH0 HAS TALKED 0R GAVE HiNTs THAT THEY MiGHT C0MMiT SUiCiDE .. GET THEM hELPPP . ASAPPPP ! THE iNfO ThAT ThEY PRESENtEd TODAY, WAS S0ME HARShfUL STUff . iCOULDNT BELiEVE THE NUMbeR THE STATiSTiCs HAd Of TEENs WHO TRiEd SUiCidE . iLL EVEN SHARE W. YOU S0ME 0F THEMM ;

• SUiCidE iS THE THiRd LEAdiNG CAUSE Of DEATh fOR YOUNG PE0PLE bETWEEN THE AGEs Of 15-24.
• THE fASTESt GROWiNG GR0UP COMPLETiNG SUiCiDE iS CHiLdREN bETWEEN THE AGEs OF 10-14 [A 99% iNCREASE fROM 1980-1997]
• EACh DAY 1,000 AMERiCAN TEENs ATTEMPT SUiCiDE .. 18 Of THEM DiE
• 95% Of ALL YOUTh SUiCiDE iS PREVENtAbLE
• ONE iN fiVE YOUThS HAS SUiCiDAL THOUGhtS, ONE iN TEN HAS ATTEMPtED SUiCidE .

WELL iF THOSE NUMbERS DiDNT fREAK YOU OUT LikE THEY DiD ME . CHECk OUT THESE SUiCiDE MYTHs & fACTS !

• MYTh : SUiCiDE HAPPENs WiThOUT WARNiNG
• FACT : THERE ARE ALMOST ALWAYs WARNiNG SiGNs, bUT OTHERs ARE OfTEN UNAWARE Of THE SiGNiFiCANCE Of THE WARNiNG SiGNs OR ARE UNSURE OF WHAT TO DO .
• MTYh : ASKiNG "ARE YOU THiNkiNG AbOUT COMMiTTiNG SUiCiDE ?" MAY TRiGGER A PERSON TO ACT ON SUiCiDAL ATTEMPt .
• FACT : ASKiNG DiRECT, CARiNG QUESTiONs AbOUT SUiCidE WiLL OfTEN MiNiMiZE A PERSON's ANXiETY AND ACT AS A DETERRENt TO SUiCidAL bEHAViOR .

PAY ATTENTiON TO TALKs AbOUT SUiCiDE . SOME0NE CAN REALLY NEED YOU AT A DESPERATE TiME iN THEiR LiVES . Y0U D0NT NEED T0 BE A THERAPiST .. bUT LiSTEN TO THEM . OPEN UP YOUR HEARTs &LET THEM KNOW THAT YOURE THERE FOR THEM . LET THEM KNOW THAT THEREs HELPP . SiLENCE iS dEAdLY . SO PAY ATTENTi0N T0 THEiR ACTiONs TOO ..

&iF YOURE N0T S0MEbODY WH0 KN0WS OF S0ME0NE WH0S TALKED AbOUT SUiCiDE . MAYbE YOURE THE 0NE WH0s TH0UGHT AbOUT iT . jUST KNOW THAT THERE iS HELP 0UT THERE .. & S0MEb0DY DOES lOVE YOU . TO S0ME0NE YOU MEAN THE WORLd .. &iM SURE YOU DONT WANT TO PUT THEM THROUGh THAT KiND Of PAiN & AG0NY iF YOU WERE G0NE .. SO0 THiNK AbOUT hOW VALUAbLE YOUR LifE iS . LiFES A STRUGGLE .. THEREs NO dOUBT AbOUT THAT . &iKNOW TiMEs GET ROUGh &YOU jUST WANT THE SiMPLE & EASY WAY OUT OF THiNGs . bUT YOU GOTTA KNOW THAT THERE ARE OTHER OPTiONS .. SO BE WiSE AbOUT THiS SORTA THiNG . iT iS PREVENTAbLE !! iTS UP TO YOUUUUU !

&KNOW THAT HEAVENLY fATHER WiLL hELP YOU iF YOU NEED HiMMM .. <3

WELL THATs iT FOR NOWW .. SEMiNARY iN THE MORNiNGG . GOD iS LOVE ! &LOVE iS GO0D !

__MUCHlOVE !

<3lalaaa

FiRST 0FFiCAL T0PiC ! =D

SO0 .. iNEVER REALLY HAD A TOPiC .. &iKN0W MY bLOG iS GETTiNG kiNDA OR NOT, REALLY BORiNGG .. AhAH . SO0 MY T0PiC iS G0iNG T0 BE ON ..

PARENTAL$$$ !

D0NT THEY jUST GET SOO0O ANN0YiNG S0METiMES ?!! liKE SERiOUSLY . iDONT KNOW ANY0NE WH0s PARENTs DONT GET 0N THEiR NERVESS , HALF OF THE TiME ! liKE iM N0T BAGGiN ON MY PARENTALs OR ANYTHiNG .. BUT SOMETiMEs iTHiNK THEY jUST BE TRiPPEENNN ! OFFA N0THiN S0METiMEs . &iKNOW THEY lOVE ME & WANT THE BEST fOR ME BUT iTs LikE LET ME MAkE SOME Of MY OWN dECiSiONs TO0 . LET ME kNOW MY CONsEQUENcEs fOR MY OWN ACTiONs . NOT ALL, BUT SOME . 

SO0 liKE . iM REALLY CLOSE TO MY MOMs . SHEs LikE MY bESTfRiEND . bUT SOMETiMEs iT GETs REALLY HARdd .. liKE SHE CONSTANtLY REMiNds ME TO DO THiNGs & REPEATs THE SAME THiNGs OVER & 0VER & 0VER . likE AAHHH ! iKNOWW iKNOWW .. &iHATE hEARiNG THE SAME OLd THiNGs . 

bUT iMEAN iM NOT TRYNNA C0MPLAiN OR ANYTHiNG . iM jUST kiNDA AGGRAVATEd RiGHT NOW &NEED T0 THiNK OF THE PRiCELESS ThiNGs MY MOM HAS dONE FOR ME .. WHiCH iS VERY HELPfUL TO ME MANAGiNG MY STRESSSSSSS ! 

SO0 YEAHs . iGUESS THATs A WAY TO HELP RELiEVE S0ME STRESS OR ANY TYPE 0R AGGRAVATi0N . LET iT ALL OUT . VENTTTT ! SAY WHATEVER THE hECK YOU WANNA SAYY . iN EiTHER AN EMAiL OR LETTER . WHiCHOVER WORkS . & jUST ERASE iT AFTERR ! THEN jUST f0RGET AbOUT iT . DNT STRESS OVER THE SMALL THiNGs likE iT SEEMs LikE iM dOiNG NOW . 

iM jUST TOTALLY bLiNdED bY THE FACt THAT MY MOM WANTs THE bEST fOR ME & dOESNT WANT ME TO MAkE THE SAME MiSTAKEs SHE diD . iGUESS iM bEiNG VERY SELfiSH RiGHT NOW . THiNkiN bOUT HOW SLEEPY iAM &NOT TRYNNA HELP MY MOMs OUT ON THiS bLOG FOR EXAMPLE .. SHE THiNks iTLL HAVE A GREAt AffECT ON ME .. SO0 THATs WHY iNEED AS MANY ViEWs & C0MMENTs AS iCAN GET . iNEEdA MAkE HER hAPPY & ATLEASt PAY HER bACK HALFFF OF WhAT SHE hAS GiVEN ME &MY SiSTER .

ilOVE MY MOM TO DEATh ! NO 0NE CAN EVER REPLACE HER OR AM0UNT T0 WHAT ShE hAS dONE FOR ME &WHT SHE MEANs TO ME .

SO0 bEF0RE YOU GO &GET MADD AT YOUR PARENTALs fOR ANNOYiNG THE hECK OUttA YOU, KNOW THAT THEREs A REAS0N . THEYRE Y0UR PARENTs &NO ONE CAN lOVE YOU AS MUCh AS THEY dO . THEY KNOW WHATS bEST fOR YOU &WANT THE bEST fOR YOU . SO0 DNT EVER TAkE THEM fOR GRANTEd , bECAUSE YOU NEVER kNOW WHATs GONNA HAPPEN . TOM0RR0Ws NEVER PR0MiSEd . SO0 MAkE THE bEST OF THiNGS NOW .. TAkE iN ALL THE PAiN OF HEARiNG YOUR PARENTs NAGG &jUST APRRECiATE THE FACt THAT THEYRE EVEN bOTHERiNG TO TALk TO YOUUU ! lOL .

WELL iDNT KNOW iF THiS hELPfUL TO ANY OF yOU .. bUT iT WAS TO ME !

MAdE ME THiNk OF ALL THE bLESSiNGs THE LORd HAS GiVEN UNTO ME<33>

[FAMiLY BUSiNESS 24/7]

iT MAY SEEM HARdd TO KEEP FAMiLY FiRST bECAUSE OF ALL THE THiNGs THEY DO TO ANN0Y US .. bUT iT THE ENDD, iF YOU DNT HAVE FAMiLY . YOU HAVE NOThiNG . liFE iS A STRUGGLE , THEREs NO dOUBT . SO0 YOU HAVE TO MAkE THE MOST OF iT &LiVE YOUR liFEE ! &LOVE YOUR PARENTALs/FAMiLY TO THE fULLESTTTT !

iHOPE THiS WAS hELPfUL iN ANYWAYY .. iF ANYTHiNG . jUST LEAVE COMMENTs !

__MUChLOVE !

<3lalaaa

H0LA ! lOTs of THANkS ..

THANKS f0R CHECkiN 0UT My bL0G !

THANKS t0 EVERyONE Wh0 ChECkED OUT MY bL0GG .. REALLY APPRECiATED iT ! <3

N0W i jUST NEED YOU GUYs T0 C0ME 0N HERE 3x M0RE THAN yOU DO ! lOL .

HAHA . WELL ANYWAYs . YEAh . THANKs EVERY0NE ! iM EXCiTEd AbOUT THiS bLOG SO iNEED lOTS OF ViEWS .. AHAh .

BUT ANYWAYs . iGUESS fOR NOW THiS iS SOMEWhAT A TYPE OF 'DiARY'. SiNCE iDNT REALLY HAVE ANY T0PiCS tO WRiTE AbOUT .. SO0 YEAH . HERE G0Es ;

WELL T0DAY , iWENT T0 SEMiNARY . WHiCH iS bASiCALLY likE biBLE STUDy . BUT iTs CALLED SEMiNARY . FOR M0RM0Ns ! lOL . & iTS iN THE M0RNiNG . FROM 630 to 715 . &YESSSS ! iGO EVERY M0RNiNGGG .. OR ATLEASt TRY TO .. &THO iT MiGHT SEEM CRAZY . iTS ACTUALLY REALLY GOOD . iTS NiCE TO START YOUR DAY W. CHURCH . OR ATLEAST A CHURCH ViBE . SETs THE DAY 0FF GO0DDD ..

SO AFTER SEMiNARY . WENT TO SCHO0L . THEN HAD HiST0RY . NUTRiTi0N . PE ! LUNCH . THEN SPANiSHH . 

SCHO0L WENT fiNE .. N0THiNG REALLY EXCiTiNGG .. &N0T MUCH TO0 SAYY .

WELL AFTERSChOOL, iWALKED 0VER T0 P0LY BURGERs &HUNGOUT fOR A biT . THEN WENT bACK TO SChOOL &HUNGOUT . &AFTER iWENT TO EVENiNGSCHO0L . iF YOURE W0NDERiNG iM TAKiNG EVENiNGSChOOL fOR COMPUTERS . b/C i DiDNT tAKE iT YET & WANTED TO GET iT 0VER WiTH SO0 iCAN HAVE CLASSES 0PEN ! N0T BECAUSE iFAiLED iTTT !

SO0 YEAH . ANYWAYs . AFTER NiGHTSChOOL . iWENT TO CHURCHH . fOR MUTUAL . bASiCALLY YOUTh ACTiViTY NiGHT iS WHAT iLikE TO CALL iT . WE hAVE AN ACTiViTY w. THE Y0UNG MEN 0R W0MEN . THEN AFTER WE jUST HANGOUT EVEN MOREEEE ! THE b0YS PLAY BASkETBALL &THE GiRLS jUST dO WHATEVER WE PLEASEEE ! BUT T0DAY WAS A loNG DAY . DNT WANT TO GET iNTO DETAiLS CUS iTS SUPER LATE &iHAVE TO WAKE UP EARLY FOR SEMiNARYY ! SO YEAHS . THANks fOR READiNGG MY bLOGGS . REALLY APPRECiATE iT !

__MUCHlOVE !

<3lalaaa

NEW to this BLOGGG .. READDDD !

HELL0 fELL0W bL0GGERRs ! =]

WELL TO START 0FF , MY NAMEs LALA . iMA 90s BABY & CURRENtLY RESiDiNG iN L0NGBEACHH . ATTENdiNG LBP0LY & CLASs 0F ACEs ! [ELEVENNN !]

BUT ANYWAYs . i jUST dECidED TO MAkE A bLOG bECAUSE WE TEENs NEEd A PLACE WhERE WE CAN TALk & GiVE EACh 0ThER AdViCE 0N liFES MANY diFFERENt PR0BLEMs ! AM i RiGhhT ?!!

iMEAN WERE ALL GETTiNG 0LdER & WERE iN HiGhSChOOL NOW ; L0Ts OF DRAMA G0Es d0WN . WE FiNd NEW lOVEs . OUR GRADEs SLiPP . PARENts STAY TRiPPEN . SibLiNGs ARE GETTiNG ANNOYiNG , ETCC ! lOL .

SO0 iM C0MiNG 0N hERE T0 ShARE MY PR0bLEMs W. YOU ALL & h0PEfULLY RECEiVE hELPFUL AdViCE !

BUT iM ALS0 0N hERE T0 hELP Y0U GUYs .. iM N0T A PSYCHiATRiST 0R ANYTHiNG & N0T TRYiNG T0 BE .. bUT iTHiNK iTd bE hELPfUL ; jUST TO hAVE 0ThERs ViEWP0iNTs 0N THiNGs & ThE diFFERENT S0LUTi0Ns 0ThERs CAN GiVE . iWANNA bE AbLE T0 hELP YOU GUYs !<3 

SO0 PLEASE REAd ThESE bLOGs ! & C0MMENTTTT ! PLEASEEEE !

hELP ThiS bLOG kEEEP G0iNGG ! __SUbSCRibE ! 

bUT Y0URE WELC0ME T0 GiVE ME SUGGESTi0Ns & iDEAs . iNEED S0MEWhERE T0 GET STARtEd .. SO0 GET AT ME ! 

iNEEd ALL THE SUPP0RT iCAN GET .. SO0 hELP ME 0UT PLEASEE !

TELL ME h0W iCAN MAkE ThiS bLOG BETTER .. TELL YOUR FRiENDS ! SHAREE !

SUPP0RT MY bL0GGG !<3